As someone who is constantly talking about the necessity of carving out space for ourselves in our lives, I want to be honest.
I know this is not always easy.
I experience this first hand.
A Lot.
There can be real internal resistance to actually taking the space.
There is a magnetic pull of being with my family
Even when I know I need space
Even when I am maxed out on my capacity
Even when I start to turn into an irritated ball of mess
Even when I desire and crave time alone.
To actually claim the space
To take time away from my family
To GO AWAY from my family
Takes a considerable amount of intention, commitment and dedication to follow through
Sometimes it feels easier to me to stay home
To stay within the seductive orbit of the family unit
My kids want me home, my husband hates to sleep alone
Mommy guilt is a real thing
AND, all at the same time, I understand the importance and the necessity of taking these longer spaces away.
The medicine they hold for my capacity to continue to navigate and hold all of the threads without overwhelm or collapse.
Holding the tension of the need and desire within me and reality of my life and responsibilities.
It has always been easier for me to rationalize going away when things are work related. Trips to teach, to go to healing networking conventions, to work at a retreat or workshop are no brainers AND they are not the same as going away for myself.
I get to take SPACE just for me.
For 2023 I made a big commitment to myself about going AWAY:
-At least 4 weekend trips ALONE (NON WORKING)
-At least 1 long weekend ALONE with my HUSBAND
-Quarterly solo writing retreat overnights
I already took 1 solo non-working weekend in January and it was EXACTLY the reset I needed. To strengthen my energy and essence and reorient back to my essence, beingness, body and alignment.
In March I took off on a girls weekend away with a close friend. Hot tub inside the airbnb and a commitment to not working.
I am booked to go away on another solo trip for May!
I am holding myself accountable to following through and creating these spaces because:
This is what I need
This is what my body needs
This is what my spirit needs
This is what I desire
This is what I crave
This is what supports me to hold as much as I do.
